Trickery
I got to see chelsea, dan, mo and marcia on thursday :D so much fun, marc brought ehr camera....I am so not photogenic ;.; I'm the absolute ugliest thing in existance. I accept that. and so apparently does dan so its all good, i'm not alone.
I tricked dad into buying most of my shopping list today ;D My wonderful hoard of cash is still intact...until tomarrow when I go out to buy me and marc halloween treats :)
I'm gonna make crowny cookies! yay!
I'm slowly beginning to realize that the hate that I hold towards myself may be becoming a bit of a problem.
I don't know why but I just hate myself and everything I do is stupid.
I'll paint something, look at it and just want to break down crying. I can't explain it, same thing when I look in the mirror or get up in the morning.
Well at least I'm trying and actually painting again....and no longer reffering it as the "P" word.
It made me so mad when dan started to talk about my friend page when we were sitting in mcdonalds (I shamelessly gorged...my poor diet)
Page is a really awesome artist and even though the guy i a complete jackass i've always respected him at least a little bit for his talent.
But apparently he doesent even like what he does, he does it because he knows he's good and can get a free ride. He has a job doing it and everything. Something until this conversation I had no idea that I would commit murder to be able to do for a living.
I think it must have showed on my face cause everyone gave me a funny look.
anyways I have to go off and hate my art some more.
ttyl
Archy
I tricked dad into buying most of my shopping list today ;D My wonderful hoard of cash is still intact...until tomarrow when I go out to buy me and marc halloween treats :)
I'm gonna make crowny cookies! yay!
I'm slowly beginning to realize that the hate that I hold towards myself may be becoming a bit of a problem.
I don't know why but I just hate myself and everything I do is stupid.
I'll paint something, look at it and just want to break down crying. I can't explain it, same thing when I look in the mirror or get up in the morning.
Well at least I'm trying and actually painting again....and no longer reffering it as the "P" word.
It made me so mad when dan started to talk about my friend page when we were sitting in mcdonalds (I shamelessly gorged...my poor diet)
Page is a really awesome artist and even though the guy i a complete jackass i've always respected him at least a little bit for his talent.
But apparently he doesent even like what he does, he does it because he knows he's good and can get a free ride. He has a job doing it and everything. Something until this conversation I had no idea that I would commit murder to be able to do for a living.
I think it must have showed on my face cause everyone gave me a funny look.
anyways I have to go off and hate my art some more.
ttyl
Archy
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