whats wrong with me -.-
Honestly, what the heck is wrong with me?
I'll do something that will complete stoke me up and make me feel so proud of myself.
Like write some of my story or even surprisingly enough, finish painting a picture.
I'll be completely euphoric for about three hours and then I have an emotional train wreck.D:
Its horrid.
Absolutely horrid.;.;
I'll be thinking, "yay! I finally got something done :D I've wanted to this for so long yay me!"
and then its "God I suck, why do i bother? whats the point, in the long run its not gonna matter?"
-sigh-
Yes today I "p" worded (painted, still hurts to say the actual word)
;.; but i'm not good, i dunno why i bother.
it used to be so easy.
I dident worry about whether it was good or not, it was just fun and people loved me for it.
But now I doubt myself so much it makes me cry.
I've been trying so hard to break out of this, forcing myself to "P" word.
But nothing seems to be getting through.
;.; whats a girl to do?
cheers
I'll do something that will complete stoke me up and make me feel so proud of myself.
Like write some of my story or even surprisingly enough, finish painting a picture.
I'll be completely euphoric for about three hours and then I have an emotional train wreck.D:
Its horrid.
Absolutely horrid.;.;
I'll be thinking, "yay! I finally got something done :D I've wanted to this for so long yay me!"
and then its "God I suck, why do i bother? whats the point, in the long run its not gonna matter?"
-sigh-
Yes today I "p" worded (painted, still hurts to say the actual word)
;.; but i'm not good, i dunno why i bother.
it used to be so easy.
I dident worry about whether it was good or not, it was just fun and people loved me for it.
But now I doubt myself so much it makes me cry.
I've been trying so hard to break out of this, forcing myself to "P" word.
But nothing seems to be getting through.
;.; whats a girl to do?
cheers
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